Things to be Proud of, If only I could

hello every one reading.

today i started the day by tweaking an email, and telling my friends what i was up to and that today was one day when i needed to know some one was thinking of me, it was a prayer forward wich i dont normally do as i dont like forwarding emails in chains, so i rearanged it added my own touches and passed it on, if ur a friend and u didnt get it thats cos i only sent it back to the person i got it from an a christian friend (who i know is christian) but if u want it just ask an ur welcome to have it, i will say the prayer for u before i send it, then u say the prayer for the person/s ur sending it to, but u copy and paste it rather than forward it. that way u can add any personal message.

so y did i need to know some one was thinking of me today. well as my friends know im staying at my sisters and this week she is away, im guinea pig sitting.

any ways iv been a bit up and down, this is the first time in over 10 years iv spend any real lengh of time on my own, especially nights, iv been struggling a bit as i find it hard knowing no one else is coming home. today i had to go to the doctors to get a meds perscription for my next weeks meds, (i can only have one week at a time because of things in my past) so i have to go 4 stops on the metro, turn right out the station and walk straight up the road, (its a loonnngggg road) ok all good and well, i know how to get to the metro from here thats not a problem, i dont know what zone ticket i need so i decided to buy a daysaver to be safe as that will let me travel the whole metro system to my hearts desire for the one ticket. i get on the metro, they anounce the station i need for some reason so i knew i wouldnt miss it, i get off, i trun right out of the station, but think it doesnt look right so i go the other way, now i know that isnt right so i go back, finally i see some thing i know, so i head to the docs, i get seen, i wall down that loonnngggg road again get the metro to my brothers wich is one stop before mine, after being there a while i get the metro one stop go to the supermarket to do food shoping then come home,

so most of u will probably do stuff like that every day, but for us, we had never been on the metro alone, we did it 3 times today, we have never walk that road alone, we did it 2 time, we have never been to that doctors alone before, we did that today, we even saw a male doctor on r own. we dont often do that, especially not when we dont know them.

if u had done all of that today most of it for the first time ever u would feel proud and rightly so, but for us that doesnt happen, i was out most of the time and every one inside was there for me all the way, they r proud of me, and i am proud of them, but i am not proud of me and they r not proud of them, being proud of r selves is some thing we have never learnt to feel, and on days like today it drives us nuts, we would like to feel proud of what we have done as a whole.

oh well i guess it will come one day.

so while out shopping we didnt just buy food lol i am as bad as gem for spending money, i bought an mp3 player that has 4gb space, (how on earth am i going to fill it, i didnt even fill the 1gb one i started of with a year ago) i also bought a digital camera (y? because i could, i mean my phone has a 5mp camera so y do i need a seprate digital camera that is a 5mp camera?) i got some water color penciles, paper, and some pastles as i dont do them and really should try. a new eeyore mug (for those who dont know us we r THE bigest eeyore fans) its so cute it says hello eeyore on it and there r 2 eeyores one is looking at a ladybird on the ground and the other is looking at one in the sky (his expresion is of shock) i got a cd, best of ronan keeton, (it was in the sale £3 or $5) i got for £5 about $9 garfield the movie 1 and 2 box set. iv seen 1 and the kids loved is so im sure they will love 2 as well. oh and yes i even remembered all the batterys for those electrical items... great once home i find out they all have batterys included? when did companys starting doing that? i thought the in thing to do was not give u them so u can use that toy on christmas morning. oh well i guess they think its not christmas its ok,

i wanted to get a microphone, u know a propper one like singers used to use all the time, the conection was a large jack and they didnt sell the adapters, so if i can get an adapter ill go back.

spoke to my sister today twice, once to give me info on the mountain and exact route they were walking and when they would be back and call, so if any thing went wrong and i didnt hear from them and the flat owner couldnt get an answer we would know where to send searches, (its the best kind of thing to do when ur mountain walking especially here in the UK as the weather can turn in minutes) then i spoke to her once she got back all safe and sound, dan managed to climb the mountain too.. tomorrow they r going to sky (scotland) so they have to be up early to get the ferry.

blogger has now added gadges so we r going to find some games to add to the kids blog.

gem went on a site yesterday called www.ourWorld.com it crashed rachels heap of a computer but from what every says it was fun, and they didnt have to download any thing, being on r sisters computer we dont want to be downloading stuff that we will need to then download again.

gem and i just have to stop being lazy and get the laptop out and on the desk after we have cleared it and plug it in to the router and see if we can get online that way.

i best leave this (wonder what the max lengh is)
and say thanks for reading if u did and if u didnt well i dont have to say any thing to u cos u wont be reading this..

Jo (an co)

Poll added

hi all, iv added a Kids big and small fun an chat blog, we have posted some of the places we like, feel free to comment or add ur own, there is also a poll there regarding a chat room.

we created one some time ago wich is private and only accessable by direct link, wich can be posted and then removed (via eding the post) or i can be given out only to people known by us and r trusted friends.

there r 3 choices,
1: Yes only opened by Rainbow Bubbles (wich means that only we will open the room and it can be used any other time)
2: Yes opened by Rainbow Bubbles and Trusted Friends (wich means we can open it but also some friends of rs can open it too, wich would mean it is more likely to be opened in ur time zone as we r in the UK.)
3: No (wich means no chat room at all by any one)

we have left the poll open for about 50 days wich can be extended if needed as we r new to this and it will take time for people to find us.

gem an all.

hello to our friends and every one..

hi all, we sent a few friends on youtube the link to this blog, just to remind u if u click on view full profile on the right at the bottom of the about me, u will get more stuff and links to all blogs, we will do one blog for triggering stuff that way it will be easyer for ppl to stay safe, we will do one for kids chatter for the littles, but any one can go there, just remember they will be chatting with inside littles. we will do other blogs for other age groups but again any one will be able to go there.

today we saw jo's brother, he stayed for a bit we showed him a vid we like on yt wich is in r faves but its mature content in that it might be triggering. its the newest one added. its a ventriliquest act wich we love.

so what have we been up to? not much, rach has broadband that spends more time telling u ur network card is configgered wrong that it does letting u online, we r hoping to by pass the pw issue by plugging r laptop straight in to the router, then with any luck we will be able to do a vid, we will do one about these blogs,

we can only have 100 ppl subscribe to read, so u might want to save the profile page so u can check an see if there is a new blog. cos once we hit 100 that will be the only way of seeing if there r now blogs with out us spaming every one wich we dont want to do.

oh yer the photo is of r new hair cut, we have saved the hair to send off like infinitycastle did to a childrens wig charity. when r sister gets back we r having putple put in it,

we had r birthday wich was fun, got loads of stuff, an rach even got stuff thinking of the littles and stuff thinking of the rest of us. some of the stuff we got is, a purple ramone dvd player, 4 collectable ty beanies, coloring stuff, art stuff, couple of dolphin aunoments, a kneeded angel, (those r great there made from a slice of white bread and glue, look them up)

rach and dan went away on friday morning so we r here looking after fish and guinea pigs, we dont like it much tho cos we know no one is coming home today we r not much for being on r own, even tho there r many of us inside out side feels strange and lonely and we dont like that. so we cant wait for next saturday to come when we know they will be home,

so i think r job for today is to clear the desk wich is full of rachels paper work, so we have to put is safe where she can sort it all later. we r thinking of getting jo to make an apple and blackberry crumble too, but we will have to check the fruit is still ok or that will be off (in more ways than one lol)

so i will close now, take care,
luv an safe hugz to r friends an any one that wants thems,

Gem an all.

I am We

Hello world,

first of all i would like to clarify the title, I am We means there are more than one of me, as my profile says i'm diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, this means there are many parts of me, We all have our own individual names or the colective name of Rainbow Bubbles. we all have different ages. i jo am the person born, it is me who has DID, they are all part of me but individual, they have as much right as i do, if you intend to make contact in any way (if posible with blogger) then please be respectful to all of us. and always remember I am We.

We have a page on youtube www.youtube.com/rainbowsbubble where many of us do videos, there are videos done by us on DID. i one day plan to publish a book or 2 and my insiders (alters/personalities plan the same.

we also have a page on bebo www.bebo.com/rainbowsbubble we have a group there for people with or involved with or would like to be involved with DID, the group is called DID is Real.

we have a page on facebook, myspace and jcfaith, most of our time is spend on youtube tho. we have met some of the kindest friends on there, many of who have DID or know some one who does, but also many of them are people who want to learn. we have a motto with is, the only supid question is an unasked one, as it will never be answered.

we have decided to start a written blog as when we are away it is hard to get videos done and we miss our friends arround the internet, so we felt if we had a place where they could come, they could then at least keep up with whats going on. if they want to of course.

but we also felt it might be got for us to write things down, and choosing to do it online is part of helping us speak out as this is the most importent thing for us, people will only learn the truth that is DID from those who have it that find the courage to speak out.

a book we would recomend is Herschel Walker's Breaking Free, we recently purchased this book and are griped by it, it has so much to offer, for every one, in its teaching, advice and realness of every day life.

Sybil and a such are extream cases of DID and most peple who have it do not have it to that kind of degree, you also have to remember for it to make the big screen or tv it has to be hyped up a bit or people would not have read or watched, in todays world we hope people are more willing to learn and listen.

we recently moved, well i say recently it was over a year ago now, but it was the best thing we could have done, we now live in a place where they beleive in DID, where our case manager beleives, where our psychotrist beleives, this is the bigerst part of the battle over, we now have to wait for the health care trust to say weather or not they will pay for our theropy.

i was diagnosed with depression and borderline personality disorder when i was 16, i was diagnosed with DID about 4 years ago, as i am away at the moment at my sisters i will check and let you know, but it was 27 of september, wich is now called our DID day, and celebrated as a new start, so because of my own experances in mental health this is the line of work im currently looking at going into, i have never been in a possision before where i thought id ever be able to go to work, but with a lot of hard work and effort this day now looks as tho it might come. at the moment im doing voluntery work in the area of mental health.

I was registered as blind back in 1994, as my condition is degeneratiive, but with the right treatment my sight will stay for some time, have was born blind due to congenital cateracts wich were removed along with my lenses when i was a young child, leaving me short sighted, over the last year or so i have had considerable sight loss, but we will not let that get in our way, we make the most of what we have and always will. of course some times im upset about it or angree, but i use what i have to the best i can, i am hoping to get a guide dog one day.

Because i am we blogs will be written in different styles, colors and signed with different names, i hope this has helped you get to know a bit more about me.

we will title all blogs, and if the content of the blog could cause unwanted feelings, flashbacks or emotions they will be marked with Trigger, please take note of this and bear it in mind when choosing to read a blog entry.

thanks for reading
Jo an Co